Outgrowing who you were
The person you used to be was a hero. They carried you through the storms of your youth, navigated the uncertainties of heartbreak, and built the walls that kept you safe when the world felt too loud.
But lately, those walls have started to feel less like a sanctuary and more like a cage.
The television shows that used to offer an escape now feel monotonous; the conversations that once sparked joy now feel like scripts you’ve memorized but no longer believe in.
If you feel a sense of heaviness in your daily routines, it is not a sign that you are failing. It is a sign that you are expanding. You are outgrowing yourself, and while that process is beautiful, it is rarely graceful.
The Weight of the Familiar
There is a specific kind of safety in staying exactly who we are.
I used to get so anxious to go out because a lot of things can go wrong so I decided to stay in the beautiful cage I created for myself (my house).
It was just so comfortable but comfort was hindering me from growing.
It is the comfort of the "indoor life"—metaphorically refusing to step outside because the weather is unpredictable and the terrain is unmapped.
When we stay in our old habits, we feel a sense of control. We know which floorboards creak and where the shadows fall.
However, growth has a way of turning comfort into stagnation.
When you have evolved internally, but continue to live externally as your old self, a friction develops.
This friction manifests as exhaustion, irritability, or a persistent feeling of being "out of place" even when you are at home.
You are trying to fit a vast, new ocean into a small, old pond.
Acknowledging this discomfort is the first step toward healing.
It is the realization that showing love to yourself isn’t just about comfort; it is about honoring the impulse to evolve.
Why Growth Feels Like Loss
We often talk about personal growth as a series of "leveling up" moments, as if we are simply adding new features to our existing selves.
In reality, growth is often an act of subtraction. To become who you are meant to be, you must shed the layers that no longer serve you.
This "shedding" can feel remarkably like grief. You might experience:
The Loss of Shared Language: You may find that you no longer connect with friends or family members who knew you as your "old" self.
The things you used to bond over no longer resonate, and the silence that follows can feel lonely.
Questioning Foundations: Beliefs you were raised with—about success, relationships, or your own worth—might suddenly feel hollow. This questioning isn't rebellion; it's a search for authenticity.
The Identity Crisis: When you stop doing the things that used to define you, you might wonder, “If I’m not that person anymore, then who am I?”
It is tempting to look at this discomfort and think something is wrong.
But this is exactly what expansion feels like. You are making room for a version of yourself that can breathe more deeply.
Honoring the Version You Are Leaving Behind
Before you step fully into your next chapter, it is essential to pause and honor the person you were.
There is often a tendency to look back at our past selves with embarrassment or frustration.
We wonder why we stayed in that relationship so long, why we didn't speak up, or why we spent so many years hiding.
But that version of you did the best they could with the tools they had. They were the ones who survived.
Instead of turning away from your past self, try turning toward them with gratitude.
You can say: “Thank you for keeping me safe. Thank you for getting me to this point. I don’t need these defenses anymore, but I am so grateful you built them for me.”
Gratitude is the bridge that makes the transition softer.
It turns a "breakup" with your old self into a peaceful "graduation."
Stepping Into the Unknown
Outgrowing yourself means moving forward without a map.
You might feel a "pull" toward a more peaceful or authentic life, but you might not yet have the words to describe what that life looks like.
Trusting the unknown is the most courageous act of self-love. It involves:
Aligning with Healing, Not Hurt: Your old choices were likely made to protect your wounds. Your new choices should be made to nourish your health.
This might mean setting boundaries that feel "mean" at first, but are actually deeply kind.
Ending the Apology Tour: You do not owe anyone an apology for changing. You are a living being, and living beings are meant to evolve.
If people in your life are uncomfortable with your growth, it is often because your change shines a light on their own stagnation.
Embracing Silence: As you shed old interests, there may be a period of "emptiness." Don't rush to fill it with new distractions.
Allow the silence to teach you what you actually enjoy now, in this present moment.
The Infinite Cycle of Becoming
Growth is not a destination; it is a season that returns again and again.
You will outgrow yourself many more times in this life.
Some seasons will demand that you rest and integrate what you’ve learned. Others will demand that you rise and take up more space.
Each version of you brings you one step closer to your ultimate truth.
The "heaviness" you feel now is simply the pressure of a new life trying to break through the soil.
Be patient with yourself. Be gentle with the parts of you that are scared. Becoming new is a quiet, sacred revolution.
You are allowed to become someone your past self wouldn't recognize. That isn't a betrayal of your history—it is the highest form of respect for your future.
How are you feeling in your current season? Are you in the "heavy" phase of shedding the old, or the "brave" phase of stepping into the new?
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Comment below with one thing you are ready to say "thank you" to as you move forward.
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